Things are looking up. The weather is cooling (as much as it ever does here) so sleeping is better. Two weeks of additional SSRIs have readjusted the neurotransmitters.
There are other things as well: I have increased the frequency and duration of my morning exercise and I am attempting to cut most junk food out of my life - Doritos, Tootsie Rolls, Cookies, Ice Cream...
Junk food does not include Ice Cream, you say? There is actual food value in Ice Cream, you say? Well, nothing says, "I don't care, just leave me alone to get fat" like a carton of Blue Bunny "Kneedeep in Chocolate" or Ben and Jerry's "Stephen Colbert's AmeriCone Dream" - both of which I can finish off in one sitting. And if there was a second carton around, I would go for that too.
I have little to no resistance to ice cream of any variety - Pumpkin: perfect for Fall. Strawberry: memories of summer. Vanilla with Carmel Sauce and topped with apple chunks (McDonald's): celebrates the harvest. I could go on and on.
But I won't. I'm feeling immensely better. So much so that I can almost believe that my family was mistaken in noticing the tell tale signs of depression. Except that they weren't.
Here's hoping that the changes in medication and lifestyle lead to a productive fall and winter and a joyous holiday season.